Happy Day

29 July 2010, 8.15pm

Today I feel... GOOD

I just need to tell myself that its ok to feel good.

I don't have to be guilty about that.

Or expect to feel down just because my memories tell me that what comes up, must come down.

I should just be.

Happy.

Missing You, I Must Be Crazy

28 July 2010, 9.15pm

I miss you. There I said it. Can I put this behind me now?

What sucks is I keep wondering if you miss me too. And I think I know the answer, but I keep hoping otherwise.

Waiting for the call that'll never come.

Really Good Advice & Positivity

How often have we heard someone say something bad about the management, complain about how rotten they have been treated and how they hate the way things just aren't the same anymore, and we just agree and add a few more jibes for good measure?

It's times like these that we just add to the negativity of a situation that may not be negative in the first place. How we look at a situation is very important. A positive outlook can turn any situation into a positive situation. What is just as important is our good advice that we give so that the people around us are also kept positive, and we can go with the flow from there.

I am guilty of not giving good advice. Today even. I should have made my stand. What I thought were worthless comments that came out of my mouth, actually meant something to others. They actually made an impact on how the people around me felt and responded. It was quite frightening. I realise now that whatever I say or do... matters. Because people are constantly listening and looking for advice and feedback. This is the way we gauge our situations, where we stand and what to do next. With good feedback and advice, that's when good decisions happen.

GOOD ADVICE & POSITIVITY can make a situation turn 360 degrees.

I must make my positive voice heard. Shut the negativity down.

One More Kick. Please.

4 July 2010, 7.50pm

Boy, I've got it bad.
It hurts when I think of you.
Why couldn't I fall in love with an angel?
Instead I've fallen for you.
You're so bad.
Bad for me.
You'll love me and leave me.
Just like you did the rest.
You're a devil in disguise.
Don't you feel anything?
Do you feel love?
Why are you like this?
But it's my fault.
It's my bad.
Because I see you for who you are.
But I can't leave.

You're so dangerous.
Like a cigarette.
Like booze.
You're an addiction.
You are like a sweet poison.
I just can't get enough of.
Yet I just can't help it.
I lose control.
Whenever I'm around you.

You've walked off now.
I can see your back from the distance.
And I know how bad you are for me.
I see the hole you've left me.
Here in my heart.
And I can't believe the only feeling I'm left with.
Is the hope.
That you will turn around.
And come back to me.

One more kick to the curb,
Maybe that's what I'll need to finally move on.

I Lose Control

4 July 2010, 7.10pm

I'm sorry I've taken the laughter out of us.
I've become hard and unyielding.
I can't seem to go with the flow.
You brought out the green-eyed monster in me.
And I can't control who I am.
When I'm with you,
I want you so much.
I want you all to myself.
But maybe I don't know how to love you.
I'm clumsy, careless,
angry and stupid.
But only to you.
Only you see this side of me.
Because, honey, you make me lose control.
My world turns upside down.
When I'm by your side.

Please see that all I want is to love you.
Can't you love me too?

Reach Out To Me

4 July 2010, 7.00pm

Let me tell you, boy.
I could turn your world around.
I could be the one to fly you to the moon.
I could be the one true love who'll never leave you.
Who'd never doubt you.
Who'd love you just as you are.
Who'd be by your side day and night.
My love can't be bought.
If you want it, it is unconditional.
It will be our parachute when we fall.
If you'd take that first step, and reach out to me.
Because I don't know how to reach out to you.

Boy, please reach out to me.

I love... I don't love...

Go with the flow. Don't go against the current.

If the answer is yes, and you get all you've ever wanted. Then good.

If the answer is no, and you lose everything you wish you could have. Then don't cry. You learned something new.

I just want you to know, that we could be great together. You and me. I wouldn't look around for someone new. I would love you the way you are.

I love your voice.
I love your laugh.
I love how you make me laugh.
I love how you always try.
I love how you make my heart skip.
I love how you're vulnerable at times.
I love how you know when I'm happy or down.
I love how you make me talk.
I love how you make me feel.

I don't love how you go around with other girls.
I don't love how you hide me away.
I don't love how you treat me unkind at times.
I don't love how you stop calling.
I don't love how you don't tell me you love me.
I don't love that I don't know where I stand.
I don't love that you break my heart.
I don't love that you don't care.
I don't love that you don't share.
I don't love how you make me feel.

Why do I continue to hope when the answer is clear? I am a fool for love.