Another Day Down The Drain

I need to get things in order. I NEED to get things in order!

Everything's just all over the place again and I know there is so much that needs to be done. SO MUCH and yet here I am, wasting another day, being totally unproductive.

When will someone come up with a "productive" or "motivational" miracle pill? Something I can just pop into my mouth and that gets me going like Speedy Gonzalez.

Can't Get You Out Of My Head

This whole week has seriously just been such a family and business week. Going on about my life, attempting to keep my focus and hormones in check. And underneath it all, I've been trying my best to not think about hot boss, which annoyingly, has the exact opposite effect.

Sure, I'll teach you to surf...

Took a day off for a little sun, sea and sand. Pampered myself with a long bath in a hot tub laced with bath salts. Sat facing the sea and surf, watching the sun set in the horizon as I enjoyed the light breeze against my cheek. Sipping a cup of hot tea as I read another chapter off my novel.

And somehow, some crazy fantasy about him and me will just creep into my head and get me all knotted up again.

Damn this crush!!!

He's Still Hot

Channing Tatum: I knew you were gonna be famous the first time I saw you in She's a Man

As planned, I met up with my hottie with the dazzling smile this week. It was really casual, we just had drinks and a really long chat. Well, he talked a lot about himself. Which is fine with me, since at times, I can't find the darndest thing to say.

Chemistry-wise... I guess mediocre would sum it up. But we do get on quite well although I find myself trying a little hard to make things work. I did promise myself I would try! Anyway, we pretty much parted on the grounds of 'hey! I wouldn't mind doing this again, let me know if you're around the area'... Its alright, just nuthin' really sizzling between us.

Had a little business meeting with my boss today. He's still got that sexy smile and voice. And this time round, he had the nerve to get a little flirty with me. Felt like stuffing him into my handbag and taking him home. Or grabbing his tie and dragging him into the soundproof meeting room and *censored*. But no, I just reminded myself that he's got a girlfriend and that I really should be casting my net wider. Sigh, onwards!!

Uninhibited, Wild Night Out

Had one of the wildest nights this week that I haven't had in months. There's always that sense of regret the morning after when I wake up with a parched mouth and the shittiest hangover. And then I'll make that promise to myself to never again go out of control with my drink. Months later, it happens all over again.




















Boy next door turned sexiest man

I did have quite a bit of fun this time though. Danced and danced til I forgot everything. My only, only boo-boo, was that I flirted a little too much with a friend who's "unavailable". To me it was all good, clean fun (well, as clean as it'll get on a crowded dance floor with heart-pumping music and all inhibitions dissolved by litres of booze). Unfortunately for my friend, he was a little disappointed when I said no to taking it one step further.

On hindsight, I wish I had a little more self-control. But it felt really good to just let myself go that night. Just not thinking at all and being in the moment. It was great. And I'm glad I didn't go one step too far. Yes, my self-respect is still intact! My friend probably isn't feeling too great though.

Anyway, onwards in my quest to finding the right man. Meanwhile, I wish my buddy all the best in his "new life" from hereon.

Over Fling, Moving On

The fling is over! Thank God! Honestly, I'm still quite surprised how I let myself get involved, and it was a pretty lousy experience. But overall, I'm happy I went through it, because I am now one leap closer to understanding my needs better and knowing what to look for in my ideal partner. To start with, no assholes. Don't know how I could have overlooked that this time round...

And hopefully, no more mistakes on falling in love with the idea of falling in love. No more, baby. This time, I'm going to go with my gut. This time, I'm taking off those rose-tinted glasses and looking deep into his character. And this time, I'm going to take a deep breath, sit back, relax and stop over-thinking every minute detail of what happened and what didn't. I'm surprised I haven't gone insane after these past 2 weeks of headache and obsessing over a jerk. This time, my bad. And.. moving on.

Hot boss has a hot girlfriend so I'm going to put him on KIV list. I can't totally strike him off because he is SO HOT. I love a man who is driven and knows exactly what he wants, and articulates it well. Although I can't have him, for now, the best I can do is be a reliable employee and who knows? Maybe one day, he'll call me up for something more than a business meeting;)

There's another hottie I've spotted and he's got a dazzling smile that reaches up to his eyes. Other than that, I know next to nothing about him. Oh, except that he's single. Ka-ching! And I've got an excuse to meet up with him next week so I'm going to ask him out for a drink. Let's see if I can find out more about him then and ignite a little chemistry between us!