New Year Incoming

2011 is coming to a close soon. Well, to be exact, in another month's time. Sticking to Chick-a-lodeon's tradition, it's time to evaluate past Resolutions and make new ones for the new year. That's the least I should do, seeing I haven't posted a single thing other than my Resolutions post for the whole of 2011.

For 2010, I resolved to achieve 3 things.
1) Love
2) A car
3) Do great work

I achieved 2 & 3. And I had a crush on a gay. Totally failed on no.1

I had bigger dreams for 2011.
1) Love
2) 40% total income saved
3) Gain 5kg, work out 2-3X weekly
4) Start writing a book
5) A house
6) Promotion & increment
7) Love my neighbour
8) Keep things simple & real
9) Stay present

I'm happy to say I somewhat achieved 6 out of the 9.

Most people have stopped calling me skinny, and people who know me tell me I've put on weight. Appetite's great plus I love to eat. And I can safely say, I work out bout... once a week? To me, that's a passable no.3 achieved. I haven't started writing a book (ambitious much?) but I have started on short stories. And I've gained confidence in my writing. A fellow writer commented I should write a book. Another (whom I admire) said I was a good writer. I have a long way to go, but now at least I can stop going in reverse. It's time to move forwards. =) And so, no.4 - passably achieved.

A house - achieved, with help from my parents. Valuable lesson learned: life is not always about going solo. We give what we can, and we receive what is given. Be grateful and cherish the love, because that's what really matters in life.

7, 8 and 9 - achieved. And more to learn. It seems that this year, I've grown more spiritually than materially. And that's just fab!

No.2's out the window. I treated myself too well for that this year. Oops.

No. 6's out too. Company's got major changes and not doing well. But I still love it here and I want to stay.

That leaves no.1, and that's complicated. I have once again fallen in love with the wrong man. The good news is, I CAN fall in love.

So what's 2012's resolutions? Let's take some time to plan. We have a month, after all. And roughly, I need:

1) A husband
2) An increment
3) Write a book
4) A religion
5) Current home makeover
6) Travel
7) Contribute to society

There. Now to refine to measurable terms.

My New Year's Resolution 2011

31 December 2010

So here it is in measurable terms:

1) Will say yes to every social outing I am invited to and actively search for boy friend, who has potential to become boyfriend.

2) Save up 40% of total annual income for the year.

3) Gain another 5kg in weight and work out 2-3 times a week.

4) Start writing a book.

5) Start looking for actual ideal house.

6) Get promotion and 25% increment by year end.

7) Love my neighbour more.

8) Keep things simple and real.

That's it. 2010, it's been fun and a great learning experience.

2011, I can't wait to achieve new milestones and breakthroughs with you.

Happy New Year everyone. May you be enlightened about the things you really desire in your life and be blessed with the courage to pursue it.

2011 Resolutions Framework

27 December 2010

Getting closer and closer to the New Year now. And I still haven't set out my resolutions. So I've decided to work out a resolutions-framework. And refine it from there.

1) Money - Well, there's definitely gonna be money involved. I need to set aside for holidays, retirement, insurance and for a...

2) House - Not just any home on the outskirts of Serdang, but a proper eco-friendly, lakeside, gated tropical-resort-kind. Those that cost a hefty bit. But that's what I want and that's what I need to save for. Maybe I won't get it this year or the next, but it will be mine soon enough.

3) Man - oh, hell ya I damn well deserve a hot man in 2011.

4) Book - Been thinking it for a couple of years now.. I think it's time to get started. Let's write a book!

5) Bodacious - That's what I'll be allocating more of my time on. Getting ultra-fit and a body that rocks.

6) Love - This year I learned a lot of things. And I achieved a lot spiritually, of which I am most proud of. I resolve to continue to love myself and to treat myself with respect.

7) Happiness - I deserve it.

8) Generosity - I am grateful for the things I have received in my life, and for the enlightenment that has come to me. And so, I want to be a better person, a better neighbour and a better friend.

9) Being present - Open up my heart and just love life, every day.

Next step: To refine my resolutions into measurable milestones to be achieved in 2011.

You see, war is not the answer. only love can conquer hate

You know we've got to find a way, to bring some lovin' here today

It's time for resolutions again

14 December 2010

2011 is round the corner, a time for new resolutions again. I love resolutions! New plans to make, new promises to self, new benchmarks to achieve.

What do I resolve for 2011?

What do you want?

One of life's most important question:

What do you want?

2010 resolutions achieved

11 September 2010, 7.30pm

It's September, three months away from 2011 but the usual "rethinking of life" feelings are coming to me already. I'm used to my ups and downs now, so I know the best way to benchmark where I really am in life is to ignore my present emotions and instead do a little comparison with my 2010 new year resolutions.

So what did I set out to achieve this year? Well, I quote:

"So following our yearly traditions here at Repressed, here are my new year's resolutions:

1) Love - I'm going to fall in love this year
2) Car - Gonna own my first ride.. THIS year! Yeah, baby
3) Work - Gonna come up with some good shit too, no, wait, make that great shit"

Did I achieve what I set out to do?

Love - I did fall for the stupidest guy. Well, its still one resolution achieved. Next round, I'll remember to name specifics & standards!
Car - You bet. Got my own ride now.. and got an unexpected windfall all because of it. Won't go into details here though.
Work - Well.. I did come up with some great lines for a campaign which I'm proud of. Unfortunately, things at work have been going a little downhill since then.

All in all, I achieved all I set out to do. And the year isn't even over yet. Proves 2 things:

1) Life is never as crappy as we think it is.
2) When we set out clear goals, we're likely to achieve it.

What's next? Getting ready a new set of goals, of course.

So what do I really want now?

Happy Day

29 July 2010, 8.15pm

Today I feel... GOOD

I just need to tell myself that its ok to feel good.

I don't have to be guilty about that.

Or expect to feel down just because my memories tell me that what comes up, must come down.

I should just be.

Happy.